7:01am
I’ve decided that I won’t force myself to exercise first thing in the morning. I dislike exercising. It’s an unpleasant activity, and I don’t have a lot of stamina in the mornings. I also find that it makes me wake up to negativity: “ughhh, I don’t want to workout…”. And it takes one negative thought for me to start the snowball of other negative thoughts. And controlling my thoughts and feelings is hard.
It also makes it harder to get out of bed, or rather it makes me not want to get out of bed. I think it sets the wrong mood for the morning. And I don’t want that. I’ve decided that I want to enjoy my mornings in a slow and leisurely way.
For me, the easiest task to do right after waking up, is to jump in the shower. The promise of warmth makes it very enticing. It wakes you right up. It gets rid of the “I want to get back into my warm bed” thoughts. It makes you want to do something. And it makes you feel better (99% of the time).
The reason why I’ve been so stubborn about exercising at certain times is because I want to shower right after it (you get all sweaty). I just wanted to feel clean afterwards. Also… social media makes working out in the morning look like a cool thing to do heh. But alas, it’s just not a good fit for me.
Even though I dislike exercising, I know it’s good for you, physically and mentally. And it’s backed my science so it’s hard to ignore. And I’m getting older, and I want to be able to still walk and be mobile in my senior years.
So I’m trying out exercising in the afternoon. I get the afternoon slump anyways. I also work from home and my work is flexible, so I can fit in an afternoon exercise. My anxiety also ramps up in the afternoon too. So lets take advantage… I tried it out yesterday and it’s a light and day difference. I have so much more stamina, the strength and energy and the right mindset to push through a good strength training workout.
As for my sweat and feeling icky afterwards? The thing is, I don’t smell after sweating. I just feel icky. I’ve decided the hell with it. Just change all of my clothes (including underwear) to dry ones and I feel good (the endorphins after exercising).
My sleep is still okay ish. I still wake up in the night, but I actually don’t know when. I’ve been placing my phone across the room so I don’t feel tempted to use it while in bed. I’m going to wear my apple watch to track my sleep starting tonight because if I’m waking up around 4 ish… why not just wake up? Maybe I don’t need a full 8 hour of sleep (which is what I’ve been aiming for).
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